So i am loving this life of loves, laughs, and languor that comes after a busy work day... I don't really have any goals right now... taking each day as it comes which is awesome. I have met so many cool people! I wish you could go on dates with Girls as friends. Dating allows you to meet people and be entertained by people you have things in common with. So why don't we have something like this for meeting girls? Like friend dates? I think we should gosh darn it! Not like i don't have amazing friends already and i have met even more through work with my last position change but it is always exciting to meet new people and get to know them. Ps. I have a total crush on a boy. WE will see where it goes... So far so good. :)
Peace out!

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81% Dennis Kucinich
77% Bill Richardson
73% John Edwards
72% Barack Obama
71% Chris Dodd
69% Hillary Clinton
68% Joe Biden
39% Rudy Giuliani
38% Ron Paul
34% John McCain
32% Mike Huckabee
27% Mitt Romney
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In other news. I moved into a friends house in watsonville. I went to court and am finally on route to paying off all my traffic bullshit. I am signing up for a course at cabrillo this semester... something light to get me back in the game. I am heading towards art histrory.
.Sarah i am so sorry to hear about your loss! He was too young.
Much love everyone!
Molly

So mom is helping wean me from miguel. Man it is hard this time of year... the bed is so cold. :( And I feel like I am almost protesting Christmas Cheer on behalf of the breakup. This isn't a choice it's a vibe. So my mum said no more miguel on Tuesday's Family night- it used to be our dinner and HOUSE night. Miguel will really miss my moms cooking and a TV. Mum said it would be easier for me and that i would have more fun, which i'm sure i will when i can focus all my attention on my awesome family. And when I think about it I haven't been to his parents house a single time since we broke up... It almost feels like he was useing tuesday nights as an excuse to get free dinner.
Work news... Thursday i will be working alone in the new job, and they want to change my hours from 8:00-5:00. Today I was told that they are prepairing to hire me down there, the gal that is training me let the cat out of the bag, she i think is getting promoted and i would be taking her job. So that is really exciting. Not that i didnt already have a hunch but now it is even more solid. Sweet. I will ask my mum for a tarot reading on what to do living situation wise. I wonder how much they are going to offer me in the new position... We shall see. So thinks are moving along as planned, it's all good.

Whoa! The CEO of our company just resigned... I don't know much about him, he seemed nice enough, he used to be the ceo of FAO Shwartz(right before they went out of buisness) And the 49ers (right before they went down the drain)... but it's a little scary, i'll bet out stocks will go down quite a bit before they go up! So thats that. I am learning how to be a Web designer. How cool is that?! I have no schooling on this at all. But here i am being taught how to work html and publish web site updates. It's all new to me. I'll be doing it by myself this coming week, and if all goes well... There will be a position opening up downstairs! :)
Note on housing: I am really considering moving into a room in a house to save a bit of money and being able to carpool with two people who work with me. And that would get me out of the strawberry rd house and it would give me an opportunity to save some money. I would only pay $400 a month now. My tarot reading said i shouldn't take financial risks right now... So yeah. Thats that.

So i just had a talk with the co-directer of all of catalog and store ops for West Marine. She is totally asking me if i am interested in taking on this position which will actually involve brain power and creative writing! It is so perfect and just the right time. She asked me what my long term goals where, if i was planning on staying with the company... blah blah blah... if you are interested it will be a wonderful opportunity for growth.. if you are not interested then let me know so i can have them start looking for some one else. So this would mean another big promotion! Which would be sooo excellent! I love how everyone here thinks i rock. I love how these things keep falling in my lap! I love having good connections. And i love being thought of as smart and capable (i am it's just nice when other people acknowlage it). So stay on the look out for exciting posts with bells and whistles! How great is my life getting? So this must be my bus. I'll take it. I can be an artist when i retire at 45! HA!

Everything in my universe is based on divine timing. I can dig tHAT... but please o please help me to manifest this little studio with all the right things in the right place, right now!
Say it with me now: Abundance will come to me quickly and easily enabling me to acquire this dream studio. I will have a smooth transition out of my current home. I will get this studio near the beach. My credit will not hinder my ability to get this place. If this is the home that is right for me now it will come easily.

2 min from the beach (26th ave), shared hot tub, full kitchen, full bath, a washer and dryer, AND i can keep my cat! I am going to check it out tomorrow and get a vibe for it.

A few events:
Mojo ran away has been gone almost 2 weeks. :( I am sooo sad about this! I love my mojo and i really want him to come back to me i miss him.
The positive side of that is that there isnt much keeping me in this house. Actually it is simply a matter or handling a debt which leads me to my next issue...

Again miguel has left me hanging financially by a thread. I am starting to realize... that the whole relationship there was nothing he really truly fully completed. Everything from cleaning, to making dinner, to sex was half assed. I just can't deal with that. I guess i realize that this living together really isn't going to work and he has nothing to make him be the guy i want him to be, because now he isn't concerned about pleasing me... So, i guess i just need to find myself a cheap car and be off on my own. Keep your eyes open for studios around aptos, scruz, soquel, wats, area. I need to get out... he is just pulling me down with him. I'm off to check out craigs list.

So i am single again! Mig and i broke up last weekend! I feel so good about this break up... suprisingly so does he! We are still living in the same house as roomates and friends...That will change when finances stabilize and or (whichever comes 1st) one of use meets someone we want to have over to the house. (big no no on the path to recovery)Int he mean time he moved into the other room. Anyway! I am so excited...and after 1 week i feel more like my old self. I am so thrilled at the idea of being totally selfish, and not compromising on anything! I can do whatever i want to my room, body, self, art... i just feel, like i finally made a correct turn on the journey of my life. :) so... in the mean time i am going to need some fun people to go out with to keep me distracted and feeling fulfilled... and a month down the line i will need a booty call. Anyone know any hot single guys who are in the "just want to have fun" Stage?
Peace! Mhua*

Soo.. lots of good stuff happening lately. I got a promotion with a $3.60 raise! Which means i will be able to move out without a whole lot of thievery and prostitution. Whhew... Thats what i mean when i say the universe always provides! :) Besides that i have been at the beach almost every weekend more often then not 2 times a weekend. I feel like i have so many good people around me. Good friends. I think that the relationships that were holding me back are finding ways to sever ties and i have no where to go but forward! What a great feeling this is.
I dyed my hair red again. As i was getting reading for kickboxing with kathy a little song got stuck in my head. Something like this... "you gotta wash that man right out of your hair.. you gotta wash that man right out of your hair...You gotta wash that man right out of your hair and send him on his waaay!"
So, next step is for a really awesome place to just become available to me for a nice price close to the beach in la selva! (this is my dream... i will manifest it how i choose!)It should have a fenced yard, allow animals..so i can bring my dog and kitty.. and have some very sweet...surfer/intelectual/artistic neighbors who are in desperate need of a playful black lab to entertain them while i am at work.
Let me know if you know of the place. The little dream pad near the beach with a cool landlord and sunshine coming through the windows. You may be able to enable my manifestation! Wouldn't that be cool? Then we can keep the circle of good will flowing. Man i sound like a hippi. Too much Nag Champa!

This is a pretty cool site. :)
http://www.zygoteinmycoffee.com/index.html

so tonight i am going to a mexican club in san jose with cynthia and silvia. I'm hoping to shake my booty to some reggaeton and salsa and have some shots of patron on unsuspecting latin boys. :)
I'll let you know how it goes!

so this weekend is crazy packed. But i made sure to keep it active. Friday...tonight i am going to kickboxing with kathy.. this teacher kicks your ass. then we are going to la madrona to relax in the hot tube.. i'll probably swim some laps first. Then we are going for sushi. perhaps a drink afterward.. not sure. Sat: bellydancing in the morning then a hike with cara and a movie, then dinner with carrey and sarah and then i'm going to see the Twinkle Brothers at the vets hall. Lots of peeps going. Cindy, possibly ashley, caity, possibly emily, and i heard that my old friend john is going too. Sunday.. i am hoping to just sleep in clean house and playw itht he dog... Of course if it is nice i'll be at the beach :)


My b-day is next month... I want to do soemthing fun.. i havn't decided what yet.

I had the talk with mig. I told him i wanted to move out and i told him why.. it was really good. He said,"give me some time to think about my answer." i was like, "do you meant your comment? Because this is not your choice... it's about me and what i want to do." So i feel so much better now, the weight hath been removed from my shoulders. I am looking for places, everything is so pricy! I mean come on people do you really think one month in that shanty is worth $1,200?!? I wish people were realistic about houseing and not so money/greed driven that they jack up the cost of a rental just because it is in *Santa cruz*. Makes me sad. Let me know if you hear about any places that are reasonable. I'm looking for a place in: watsonville, aptos, santa cruz, corralitos and soquel areas.
'asta!
Peace.

so i'm back on my work out kick. I got a good jump start today, I took a walk on my lunch break and then i worked out for an hour after work and now i am going to kickboxing after dinner!!! I just want to feel really good about myself again! ya know? Anyway... what else is new? I bought a new phone.... and 3 days later miguel found my old one in his jacket pocket. We have no idea how it got there... Anyway i am contemplating keeping my new one... since it is so cute, and i just love it. Or returning it so i can get the money back. It would be nice to have a spare... with my bad phone karma.

Not much to update right now!

'asta luego!

p.s. What do you think about traveling to crete? By the way i have a great link for everyone.

http://www.astro.com/cgi/ade.cgi?ract=aclch.cgi&btyp=acm&msyn=&lang=e&cid=

just fill in all your data and it will ask to confirm the city and state 2 times. Then click on the map and it will tell you how various locations are for you astrologically. it's lots of funa dn makes you want to travel! try it when you are in a daydreamy mood :)

This weekend is packed. tonight: kickboxing, monterey's lava lounge for battle of the bands. tomorrow: garlicfestival, beach, bbq at silvias house, party, maybe go out. Sunday: arroyo seco, sleep! I have to keep myself busy... venus is retrograde as of today... and of course i find myself looking up Amy Winehouse lyrics and thinking back...

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Amy Winehouse
° Back To Black °



He left no time to regret
Kept his dick wet
With his same old safe bet
Me and my head high
And my tears dry
Get on without my guy
You went back to what you knew
So far removed from all that we went through
And I tread a troubled track
My odds are stacked
I'll go back to black

We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to.....

I go back to us

I love you much
It's not enough
You love blow and I love puff
And life is like a pipe
And I'm a tiny penny rolling up the walls inside

We only said goodbye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to

Black, black, black, black, black, black, black,
I go back to
I go back to

We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to

We only said good-bye with words
I died a hundred times
You go back to her
And I go back to black

***
http://www.gtweekly.com/astrology

Risa is right on the money for libra this week. Woe is me.

so i cant find my phone and it is reallllly frustrating. I have so many numbers in there and it is a gsm phone so i have a chip that contains all my data and it is in that fucken phone!! grrr.. i have the worst luck with phones. Seriously! I pay my bill and yet i cant find it! It would cost me like 80.00 to get the crappiest phone available and for that money i would rather pay another $100 and get one i like. But i'm sure as soon as i do that i will find my old one. :( Well you know how these things go. I cant even get rteception at my hosue anyway.. and most people i call are on verizon. But i like my phone number. I could technically switch my phone number to verizon but then i will have to buy a phone with them and pay the $200 cancelation fee with t-mobile. Plus i dont knwo if i will be approved for a verizon phone because my credit sucks really bad. Anyway if you know anyone who has a used tmobile or cingular phone i can get it unlocked and use it with a new t-mobile chip. i will still loose all my contacts but at least i will have something that rings!

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Second Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

i can't go anywhere for a whole day with out miguel complaining that something hurts him. Whether it be a tunny ache or his neck, back, head... whatever. Do you know anyone that feel pain every single day? I dont think i can stand it for much longer. he called me today and was like my tummy still hurts. And i was like, "suprise suprise." and he was like... "gee, thanks babe." And i was like, "well i am sick of hearing about it. Something is always wrong with you! Just Deal with it!" He was like, "ok...w ell i have to get back to work". Not only that but i had the worst 2 minute sex of my life yesterday. twice! I was feeling like the 1st time was sooo crappy that the 2nd time had to be better. well even with 14 hours in between it sucked. I think that all of this means i need to move on. Things are just sliding downhill faster and faster.

... so latley miguel can't sleep because my kitten "dolce" likes to bite and scratch him in the middle of the night. he hears that little nightmare of a warning bell and eyes open wide awaiting the next attack! :) I think it is hysterical. Dolce just sleeps on my other pillow all sweet and purring, and serene. It makes me smile because i think he will be a great mouse catcher! I told miguel we need to catch a mouse and give it to dolce so he can get used to the flavor. I HATE MICE!

so. I got back from camping and it was Great fun. Except that i wanted to murder my brothers at the end of it. 16 and 19 is too old to be annoying little shits! At least miguel and i got along very well and have since i got back. So that was that. The other thing is i am on diet and work out routine again. I have been working out everyday this week and i plan to keep it up. :) It makes me feel good and my body really likes it. So, besides that, not much else has been happening. I am going to see carreys new pad tomorrow for dinner. It sucks because tomorrow is a bad dinner day for this diet i am on. It's Bananas and milk and soup day?! Carrey was like, " i can make you a soup what kind of soup do you want me to make you?Banana and milk?" :) I am so over soup! But this diet is just a jumping off point. ya know? anyway... Nicole got a new kitten and I was like oh yeah it is kitten season. I really need a cat because i have mice living in my house and they are brave. So i need a really crazy cat that will show them no mercy! Let me know if anyone has seen any free kittens. Oooh actually i am going to check craigs list and the spca right now! See ya.

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H ah ha ha.. yep. So i am going camping tomorrow with my family and i am really excited that i get to take time off work and swim everyday for 5 days in a row!!!! And it will be hot and we will always have lotsw of food.. an no one will think you are an alchoholic if you drink in the day time! And i can read w/o feeling like i should be cleaning. And yeah... It's going to be great. I can only hope my family will try to be harmonious throughout and not let there silly little mood swing mees up my trip! I'll be back Monday! SSeeeee yyaaa!

so i think i am back to where i was 1-2 years ago for a reason. It's like riding a bus... if you don't get off on the right stop it will keep driving the loop. So i must have missed my stop... did something not quite right for my life path. Or maybe i just had to learn a lesson... WHAT WAS IT!!!! HEY MR.MAN... SPELL IT OUT FOR ME BECAUSE I AM TOO TIRED TO THINK RIGHT NOW! DO YOU HEAR ME?!!!... i'M NOT AS QUICK WITTED AS I ONCE WAS!!!... well hopefully they got that message. You know.. cuz i used caps and all which means i put the extra effort in to hold the shift key with my pinky(or just pushed capslock). Anyway, I dont know but hopefully i will notice what it is that is sending me on the loop again. If i clear my head and pay attention. Does anyone ever feel like they are just killing time. Like certain parts of you life are just spacer between the important moments.. and you have to kill time in order for the karmic path to reveal itself to other people or create other options/events the inevitably become one of the "moments" in your life? Well; i am not getting any younger. Maybe thats what my life line is all about. Auto drive. See i have this crazy lifeline. it is not one long line. If you look at it like one line it has a huge gap about 3/4in thick. But on the very close left of it there it is. It overlaps on the start and finish it is about 1 inch long, it is parallel,it never touches the other line. I have though of it's symbolism through out my life, did i jump a dimension and come back. Maybe i was in a coma? Maybe i completly internalize and become a meditating hermit with no contact to the outside world and this is what draws the line inward. Maybe i body hop and my spirit lives in someone else.... An inch on your life like is a long time! It is like 20-30 years... And based on where it starts i should be experiancing what it is very soon.